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[carmesi]

It doesn't matter if you've already said something but can't remember it. If you still want to say something, you should say it.

[in the same way she had meant to say a hundred thousand things to tony stark, now fizzled into nothing after his death; that kind of hollow nothing just sitting there, never to be resolved.]

[ordinar]

I don't want to talk to him. It's not worth it now.

[To pick open those wounds.]

[carmesi]

That's your choice.
How do you feel now about the other matter — the interrogations?

[ordinar]

A little better.

[Like maybe he can get through it without throwing up.]

[carmesi]

Well.

If it ever happens, feel free to— what's the term...? Keymash to me through here. If you think it might help.

[ordinar]

Yeah, sure.

If I send a super incoherent message, you know what it means.

[Ha...ha...]

[carmesi]

It might not end up happening, in any case.

How are you, otherwise?

[this question, though she's likely asked it, is more regarding one very specific thing: his brother. losing someone like that is not easy. wanda can only empathize, remembering how she had reacted when she was initially grieving for pietro.]

Have you been sleeping well? Eating?

[ordinar]

[Otherwise? He's lonely most of the time. He misses his brother every day. Simon, every other day. He'd kissed two boys. He lies awake at night and can't get out of bed during the day. Sometimes he forgets meals; other times he slips food out of the dining room to eat alone.]

I guess so.

Wanda, I'm fine. Despite everything.

I started learning how to fight. I kind of suck, but

It's better than nothing.

[carmesi]

[wanda remembers not wanting to have people fuss over her when it came to reconciling losing pietro. she would much rather distract herself with hours and hours spent watching tv, when she wasn't out training with the avengers. there really isn't much she can do from solvunn for him.

and the last thing she wants is to betray his trust and tell others about why they should check up on him.

so— she skips over that.]

You have? Are you learning to use a weapon in specific?
Or is it using magic to fight?

[ordinar]

[He appreciates Wanda's willingness to accept his flimsy cardboard answer. A more truthful one, he thinks, would be such a mess that nobody could make any sense out of it.]

Hand to hand.

Kyle offered to teach me. I figured I might as well.

[carmesi]

I know Kyle.

["i like him"]

I didn't know he would know hand-to-hand combat, but maybe that just means he's that good at it.
I know you'll take advantage of that.

I have to help herd in the goats. I'm sure you'll find that exciting.
I hope I'll talk to you again soon, Wilhelm. Take care of yourself.

[ordinar]

[Well, Wanda's judgment in character is a little suspect now. It's not Kyle he's thinking about, but Lucifer. Part of him wants to know what she sees in him; the rest of him knows he'll get all twisted up in knots. He wants to talk about Lucifer as much as he wants to talk to him — and as much as he wants to explode at Wanda.]

He's been working me pretty hard. I'll let you know when I stop sucking.

Thanks, Wanda. You take care of yourself too.